Facing Uncertainty

Facing Uncertainty


but no matter how we look at what’s
happening in the world and no matter how we look at how you perceive the world
one of the greatest transformers of consciousness one of the greatest
cultivators of presence one of the most potent catalysts that brings you out of
the narrative of ego and into the timeless nature of your soul is
incubating in an experience called uncertainty and so when I call tonight’s
teaching facing uncertainty it is the courageous will to allow the uncertainty
of life instead of causing you to find other certainties to hiden to actually
to come out of hiding and to face uncertainty as if the words themselves
are saying facing uncertainty is how we allow the hands of fate to lift the veil
or mask of ego from the true self looking through it and I want to take
you through a process where I help you face uncertainty without looking for
other levels of certainty to hide in the process of uncertainty or what it does
for us as a spiritual catalyst of awakening the process of uncertainty is
actually where we shift and through our maturing out of the narrative of ego and
learning how to live in such a state of alignment and maturity so we actually
can transform and heal without the need of a narrative now a lot of other
teachings will frame it a different way they’ll speak about it with different
words and because the teachings I represent is the most loving and
compared way to get from A to B I happen to think
that sometimes when people talk about the story you know they’ll say drop your
story if you’ve heard that teaching I find that to be not very compassionate
and I find it to be very cruel to say to someone who has been neglected or abused
to drop their story I find that to be abusive and so I’m not here to say drop
your story I want to respectfully first explain to you what the purpose is of
having a story because I don’t want you to try to get rid of your story simply
because your story is there to protect you until you’re strong enough and
courageous enough to evolve without one in the same way I would never ridicule a
child for having training wheels on their bicycle because the training
wheels is how children stay safe before they learn to balance so what’s the
purpose of having a story because strangely enough on the spiritual path
there’s many paths that try to get you to a reality beyond concepts a reality
beyond story a reality beyond the veil of ego and if you have a teaching that
is trying to deliberately move you beyond a story you know but the words
like let it go which let it go is a very potent
teaching in fact in my new book which comes out in March the universe always
has a plan that’s had gold rules of letting go I teach you about letting go
which is very different than let it go let it go is very dogmatic and in their
words that I would never speak to you my own innocent heart or any child dwelling
in the heart of any because you’re not the one who lets it
go you are the one who lets go so that what is really gripping you can let go
of you as I’ve said before you’re not the one who lets go you are the one
being let go of and so when we talk about the story the story that basically
has a narrative that says you are the product of your past of your familial
patterns of your upbringing of your culture of your gender or the gender of
your choosing all of these things have a purpose so I don’t ever look at anyone’s
experience and go God look at that story in fact it’s one of the reasons I’m able
to hold the space I hold it helped so many of you transform because I don’t
naturally have judgments over people’s experiences because I’m too interested
in your experience and it’s my interest in experiences since I was a very young
person that has caused me to pay such close attention that I’ve started to see
how things happen and the way we can get out of them in the most loving way so
what I will say is when you as an aside to this when you’re with family members
partners and friends when you’re around other people who are very much attached
to their story what you’re in the presence of is a human being who is
attached to a shield which means you’re in the presence of someone who is so
afraid of being hurt neglected or abused that they’re hiding behind the shield of
a narrative and when you see someone who may or may not know how afraid they are
the compassion in our hearts say may I be the safety for this person and remind
them how safe they are to be as they wish instead of
finding myself becoming short-tempered and aggravated because of the things
people wedge between our connection and all you have to do is get interested you
have to be one step more interested in other people then you are interested in
the things you believe about other people or yourself so what’s the purpose
of a story because I’m a writer I love a good story
I don’t want you to drop it your story just tell me an epic one because this
entire world with each of us and all of our lives being the various chapters of
the most epic novel that’s ever been written when you go to heaven you’re
gonna watch your life back on life review and you’re gonna look at your
life story not from the perspective of the main character but from the
perspective of the one who wove the tale as soon as you see it from that
different perspective you will want nothing more than to get
back into the story so you can try to live it out differently so all the fancy
teachings that say drop your story don’t understand how important the story is
and really the way a story begins to be crafted as a shield that your ego uses
to hide behind is really an act of mercy because everything that happens in this
lifetime since the moment you were born prior to birth and throughout all births
and deaths as many of us probably understand very deeply every moment of
being alive in a human body is the opportunity to experience the
transformation and expansion of your soul from start to finish there is no
moment in this world for any other purpose but spiritual
evolution including the joys and the pleasures of being in a body and of the
worldly pleasures we get to enjoy with our senses and so we know that because
we’ve either been here before a lot of us remember coming from different
incarnations some of us are from different planets and solar systems and
this might be our first time on this planet some of us don’t look out that
spaceships and think what’s their agenda we think family reunion right and we’re
all being different experiences someone might go mad there’s a ship what do they
want and I’m like you mean Frank karaoke king of the cul-de-sac and the
place he’s a blast we talking about hey three feet Holly’s gray but once you get
to know him amazing yeah news flash there’s karaoke in the pleiades I can’t
confirm that I assume but the story the story is created from your highest
consciousness even though a lot of the stories aren’t of the highest
consciousness the story doesn’t have to be of the highest consciousness to be
something helping you that comes from your highest consciousness which i think
is a fascinating thing and the purpose of the story is that it gives you
tangible perceivable real-life evidence to justify why you’re feeling what
you’re feeling so a lot of us know the transformational process you get
triggered you feel an explosive emotion and you know whether you know from your
own experience or my teachings what you’re feeling is a healing taking place
and as you feel this emotion you can also sense maybe the top of your head
blowing off and like a volcano energy shooting out and going back to source
and yet the story is the introduction to a lot of people that says what you’re
going through isn’t just because of what people do or don’t do it’s a deeper
healing where you are healing your lineages your ancestry we are all doing
things for much bigger reasons but the story gives you a human melodrama
because the purpose of a story is to give attention
to our emotions now in the beginning you will give attention to the emotions with
a story about who caused it who’s to blame there will be judgments all these
things but at least it brings attention to the emotional body as you evolve you
will find yourself releasing and clearing a lot of the density of the
story and usually the way it works is that you will have less and less of a
story to hide behind the more you get on to the fact that any healing taking
place is a gift of your evolution not that you are a victim of your
circumstance so it’s all a trajectory of consciousness and you get to a place
where you are so well aware that everything is an activation a clearing
an integration you become so well-versed in the healing transformational process
that you don’t require your external world to play out these characters and
experiences to justify why you feel the way you do so there’s a reason why
stories exist and to belittle people for having stories is like ridiculing an
infant for crawling instead of walking look at that baby being such a baby
why I’d be such a baby baby right you wouldn’t say that that’s ridiculous but
but when it comes to spirituality oh look at that person with that story over
there yeah don’t get too close they’re gonna lower your vibration oh my god oh
my god no no here’s I’m thinking get the David
Hawkins power versus force chart I am muscle testing how much my
vibration is dropping right now because of their story I was a joy now I’m back
to neutral that fast having the right to shame if I don’t get the hell away from
this person isn’t it weird how we hear this definitely laugh oh god that’s
judgmental but when you’re in certain spiritual settings in the name of
spirituality we can justify a lot of weird things so I’m not just saying
waking up to the highest possibility of your true enlightening waking up out of
the density of ego but even waking up out of the density of the spiritual ego
and often what happens is people go from having a go at story to having a
spiritually going story right and then when you learn some spiritual stuff but
you’re still operating from the same patterns of ego we have what’s called a
spiritual ego and there could even be people that work in the field as healers
that have not really addressed their density and when you have that
combination of a healer that is still operating from a place of ego I’ve
thought about this recently and I’ve come up with a new archetypal term I
think you’ll like this one this is I’m very proud of this as I’m taking a
breath before I share with you prepare yourself you too you will tell
your children about me to me the archetype of when there’s a healer who
hasn’t really addressed their density they become what I call The Gaslight
worker and if you have you ever experienced The
Gaslight worker just like if you ever gone to a healer and they do some
healing and you go I saw you wave your hands for the life
of me I can’t feel a thing and The Gaslight worker says to you you
must be in resistance really and it escalates and escalates and basically
becomes where the ego projects its unconsciousness under those that are not
having a similar experience and again we wake up out of ego we allow people to
have stories because stories are where we start to learn that in the story of
you as a person surrounded by all the people that have supposedly shaped you
into the person you are which is true by the way until you wake up in
consciousness and when you wake up in consciousness you actually realized that
the conditioning you thought that shaped you was a dream because you are that
which is both never been conditioned you are that which cannot be conditioned and
so we have a story so we have a launching pad of something to wake up
from and when you’re around other people that are in their story you’re just
around those that are being prepared for an awakening and they are in the
presence of you who is in your journey of awakening and you’re reflecting to
them what is waking up in them and equally so you being around people that
are in their stories is one of the greatest ways for you to check your
mouth people who are in stories and people who are in egos are the greatest
people for people waking up to be around because it will teach you that your job
is not to wake up other people in your life your job is to wake you up and when
you have a need for other people in your life to be like you that’s why you’re
around people who seem unlike you because it’s God dressed up as
supposedly messed up people saying speak the language of emotion not the
spiritual stuff the spiritual stuff is for us when we gathering community we
can come to the Star Trek convention and talk Vulcan language to each other and
where our pointy ears and do the whole thing but when you go out there and
you’re around the world your family that’s when you have to tuck it in let’s not let it go
it’s tuck it in see that makes sense tuck it in someone came to me Matt I
have had an awakening and I have to go around my family what should I do
tuck it in tuck it in they go what do you mean by that I said you know all
this stuff you like to talk about they said yeah I said don’t do that don’t do
that at all what what would I talk about then them
the fact that you are around people who seem so self-absorbed to themselves and
don’t seem to give a you know what about you is giving you a break from you and
all you have to do is be interested in them and realize this is my spiritual
training right the fantasy of if only I can have a family who was spiritual and
then you’d be in a cult that’s the truth eight times out of ten this is my
experience eight times out of ten when I talk to someone that says yeah man I was
raised in a family that was all about spirituality really what calls that because there’s a reason why none of us
grow up like this because it’s not what you need what you need is the setup what
you need is the story and what you need is to be established in a story where
you think you are someone somewhere going some other place and that’s when
you are ready to wake up and what’s interesting is a lot of us have these
conflicts where we look at our families and we look at people we think God if
they could only see my point of view they can only be like me but the truth
is other people cannot see outside of their narrative in ego in ego you only
see from one narrative which is the first-person point of view the only
thing capable of seeing beyond that is consciousness and the only way for you
to hold a space for someone else to be conscious is for you to activate and
awaken your consciousness so when you’re around people and again I’m not saying
you should be around people that don’t feel good to be around but when you’re
around people like family or whoever or you’re at work and it just doesn’t feel
good you have to also remember how are these people in their most unconscious
state actually helping me to be rooted in my consciousness what do I have to
let go of judgmentally and myself in order to see them as a gift instead of a
curse and if they are triggering all these spiritual ideas and me about
superstition and lowering my vibration oh my god they might have entities there
I jump inside of me maybe they’re just bringing up all the
things that are keeping you living out a very small spiritually fiend reality and
so we have to always remember when we are going through the process of waking
up the story or the narrative is there is a launching pad for evolution and
oftentimes is the state of uncertainty that is helping us go from hiding behind
a story of self-image and going into a reality or we feel so free and liberated
we don’t need reasons to justify our experiences and that’s the advanced
level of awakening because which which is weirder having circumstances that
seem so real to be the cause of your pain right I was happy and then I met
this person who was now called my ex or whatever people’s experiences right and
you thank God I was so happy until they came around I’m just speaking to
people’s common experiences or which is more strange no context I was sitting on
a beach in Jamaica looking at the sunrise feeling very grateful and then
anxiety erupted and you have no reason or context and you would find out that
even though the story is probably the easiest place for you to go into
judgment having no context for why things are happening actually makes you
so ungrounded so much easier and so even though people use stories to justify
judgment and we can talk about the unconscionable actions that people do
through the veil of their own inner storytelling a narrative of course but
the merciful action of it or the merciful reasoning for it is that if you
had no reason to justify your experiences you’re actually so much
closer to going insane and so the universe would rather say hmm
instead of insane let’s let’s let’s veer to judgment land and from judgment land
we can unpack from there because the universe is interested in the long event
and as spiritual beings were not in the long game we’re in the short game aren’t
we how fast can I change this crap how fast
can I manifest a new reality and how can I get in charge of everything and making
it everything I wanted to be in nothing I don’t want it to be
isn’t that the dream some people have and then you realize as you wake up
thank God I didn’t have as much control as I thought I did right thank God when
I was turning the steering wheel at 7 years old I wasn’t really driving the
vehicle because I would have really hurt myself so when we are alive in a time
where we are living through the Ascension process this is the Ascension
process this is it happening but what’s happening is we are seeing and feeling a
world that is seeing the evolution of consciousness through many different
narratives and as you start to wake up yourself in consciousness you unplug
from a collective narrative and instead of seeing it from the perspective of
what is dying or what is being lost or what is going to hell you start to see
it from the consciousness of what is being rebuilt what is being reborn and
what is being expanded and cultivated in consciousness and so the process of
uncertainty is the most fertile soil for you to experience your greatest
transformation and right now on the planet given the amount of uncertainty
people have this is the greatest opportunity you’ve been given but it’s
all what you do with it and before we go any further again
because I want to use as an interactive experience let’s just as a lot of you
know I do repeat after these statements let’s just try this together and just
see how it feels I accept that having a story or an inner
narrative is not wrong it is a cosmic setup so I
have something to awaken from and I accept that if i willfully try
to let go of my story I’m only making it stronger and even if I were able to let
go of my story oh and a bigger spiritual story I would have had and I accept that
the people that are the hardest for me to be around our because those are people
who are hiding behind different stories and narratives where the way they perceive me
as perhaps not the way I want to be seen and especially if I derive either my
sense of self are my sense of value
from the connections I feel with other people I’m likely to try to rush them beyond
their story so I can turn them into a character
to seize this character the way I wish to be seen but in consciousness I don’t
have to manipulate anyone’s story nor do I have to be victim victimized
thank you by someone else’s story and in knowing in us so I allow everyone
in my life the right and privilege to hide in their story and if I need to
hide in mine so be it because the only thing other people help
me do is awaken in consciousness and instead of asking other people to drop
their story what if I free others from the story I have of them and so I’m free
feel that for a moment yeah you see that’s when I talk about being polite
and conscious and loving to all people I’m not saying it to you because of how
I want you to see me I’m saying it because that’s just the life I live and
part of the magic of how I live like this which is not something I do in
every moment and monitor at all I don’t I just don’t mind someone being in a
story because that’s their hiding spot and as a healer and as an awakener of
consciousness I’m here to heal and awaken those who are ready to heal and
awaken and those who may not be ready are those who hide so when I see someone
hiding and I can tell in the split second someone that’s hiding you know
what I do I let them hide I’ll tell you why because you’re not ready to heal and
awaken until the awakening of your free will says I desired this change so I’m
someone who can bring the change for those that desire and those who hide may
not know what I know about hiding and I’ll teach you the secret hiding is like
any other human experience or emotion hiding or the feeling of sadness or any
action any feeling or action will be
transformed in the light of consciousness when each person has spent
enough time in every particular experience because as the time you spend
in an experience that cultivates the right amount of presence that allows
consciousness to start waking up out of the hiding spot so every human being has
to literally spend a certain amount of time hiding before something within you
says I hide no longer and so I’m not someone who’s gonna rush someone through
the process I’m gonna say if they’re hiding that means they haven’t spent
enough time hiding and of course what do you do when you’re hiding if you’re kind
of aware that you’re hiding you judge the crap out of yourself for doing it
that’s what you do and when you go oh my god I’m hiding and I’m judging myself
you’re doing it right part of the part of the fallacy on this spiritual path is
we think we’re only doing healing work when we’re doing things a certain way I
gotta tell you any which way you’re doing it is right oh my god I’m this
spiritual being and I chant and I light sage and I focus on my chakras I’m
judging people in my life that’s time well spent in a spiritual ego and you’re
judging yourself for judging others because your consciousness is becoming
conscious of that pattern and when consciousness starts to wake up to
itself the ego that is still kind of present as consciousness awakens becomes
horrified of its behavior so we have to give ourselves tremendous compassion
because your ego has the light of consciousness awakens before your ego
disappears into the light it’s horrified by its behavior it’s like
someone who went out on a drinking binge and didn’t know they’re being filmed by
their friend then the next day watches the footage from their narrative they
were the mayor everything was great we all had a good time oh my god we should
do this again but the footage shows a different experience doesn’t it that’s
where we started the party chosen of the three or five things Abarth dog that’s
where you begged me to never abandon you and under that tables we get passed out
for the night Bravo so when we start to become conscious of
our patterning it’s very hard it’s very embarrassing it’s very embarrassing is a
good word it’s very embarrassing it’s very humbling but we have to understand
and this isn’t to justify any unconscious behavior fact you’re gonna
come to a point where you’re gonna say to yourself I need to stop doing what
I’m doing and you’re gonna employ all these tactics in attempt to stop doing
what you’re doing and on purpose they’re not gonna work because if they were to work you would
be under the impression that you were in control of us you are a part of this
you are a collaborator in this you have free will that may not be in charge of
the things you wish it were but you’re not in control of this your higher self
is and the ego that wants control of its destiny is not the one that can reach
the part of you who has created this their one but they’re not the same so
you will have times in your life where you go here’s what’s causing my pain
here’s what’s bringing destruction to my family’s life I need to stop this and
with every positive intention you will try and maybe a ward for a little bit
but more times than not it will not work and we get so down on ourselves but the
reality is is that we have to do the best we can do right we don’t need to
make audacious claims we just need to be honest and go I’m gonna try to make some
changes and I hope I can do it to the best of my ability but you have to
understand that there has to be a certain amount of time spent in certain
states to build up the equity to ascend beyond those limitations and so the
greatest thing we can do as spiritual beings is not be so hard on ourselves
not require other people to accept us that’s your job it’s your job to say
whatever I gain I gain whatever I lose I lose and only I need to accept myself as
I am and maybe other people don’t accept what you accept and maybe for other
people they can’t be around this process it might be too messy for them and we
say if you have somewhere else to be I wish you well because the only person
who needs to learn how to be fully with you is you and that can be heartbreaking
and humbling to what might be lost given certain behaviors that people have to
play out and so I say this with the utmost humility I want you to be able in
the perfect world to find your limitations to find your
missteps to find what you need to fix and boom you’re a brand-new person and
sometimes you can do that but you can only do that if you’ve spent enough time
in lower states totally playing out what that state is here to teach you so that
you build up the amount of pressure to ascend beyond it so a truly a weight
being has spent so much time in hell that the revelation of Heaven has just
been a humbling relief a master is not someone at the highest rung of the
ladder who looks at the lower rungs with judgment oh hi I’m the highest Ron look
at these lower rungs like if you had a ladder right I’d surprise in this in the
last video if you had a ladder with only the top rung it wouldn’t be a ladder you
need every step indeed the lowest to get to the highest you need kindergarten to
get to grad school could you imagine applying for grad
school I’m so sorry you didn’t go to kindergarten
that’d be horrifying but you need to spend certain amount of
time in every circumstance and emotional state and so when human beings and get
into these really fascinating tail spins and they go I don’t have abundance and
then they flip through Facebook and there’s a picture of someone do you want
to be abundant yes I do well here are the ten easy steps take my
fantastic abundance course and God bet bless people who teach like this and
you’ll do the ten steps the five steps though whatever because the spiritual
ego is the most attracted to any amount of busy work that keeps you fantasizing
about the different circumstances you want to the point that you will start
actually in such a crafty manner hallucinating how your environment is
actually showing you that you’re moving in the right direction now I think this
is working I’m feeling more abundant this is good and what will happen is and
I’m just being totally honest with you you will wind up manifesting more
abundance synchronicities expanded consciousness and flow not because of
the positive things you’re trying to do because you’ll have spent enough time in
the opposite to make room for the opposite we call this relationship
between opposites polarity and before you can enter a level of consciousness
where both opposites disappear the sense of time vanishes and you’re just rooted
in the presence of your own eternal being as an enlightened master before
you get there you have to experience the relationship between opposing forces we
have to spend time at night to get us into the next day or morning we have to
experience sentence to help us mature and have the worth to
welcome greater joy we have to experience scarcity so we can use our
creative muscles to make the most out of very little so that we can be
responsible and grounded when more is given all of this has to do with theif
the harmony of opposing forces and the hallucination is that you will force
yourself to do a bunch of erroneous spiritual busy work
that’s a nice kind of putting it and then the moment where you’ve spent
enough time in one stage shifts into something positive you think it’s the
busy work that did it you see it worked is he it worked that’s like someone in a
prison cell who’s going to be paroled on a certain date sits there and says if I
squeeze as hard as possible I’m gonna speed up the parole process and they
just sit there and squeeze as hard as they can and then on the date they were
always meant to be paroled there let other prison and they go look it worked at the end of the day erroneous
spiritual busy work is just what you do with the time you’ve been given to feel
the way you don’t want to be and what I want to end tonight is you wasting any
time negotiating with yourself and we do that by facing uncertainty and
welcoming it and you can feel the energy near any time you feel uncertainty it
usually is never gonna feel right to you and to your ego whose narrative right
what’s the basic narrative of ego the narrative is IV ego refused to change
while expecting everything else to change at my women demand and whenever
you are faced with the uncertainty as the cultivating presence that is
unraveling and free from the hiding spot of your inner narrative it never feels
like you’re doing it right it always feels wrong or you always feel like what
is the universe telling me that I can’t hear with my own senses or what am I
missing or whatever the judgment is if I was at a higher vibration surely I would
not be experiencing this again as a repeat after me let’s have a little bit
of therapy for a moment a little spiritual ego therapy try the sell out
of me I accept that I am feeling exactly the way I’m feeling because every person
has a specific journey to live out where every person has to spend a
certain amount of time under the pressure and intensity of
various emotions and states because that’s what cultivates presence within various emotions and states
and of course the time I spent in one side of polarity as only making space for me to welcome
the opposite side of polarity so it’s not the erroneous spiritual
busywork that makes all of this better it’s the time I spend under the most
intense precarious and uncertain feelings that
cultivates presence to turn volver ability from weakness into a strength
and things like loving myself breathwork intention and even mature healing
modalities is not erroneous spiritual busywork it
is how I soothe and love my most innocent parts as I make it safe and okay what doesn’t feel safe and ok to face and as it become a greater parent to the
inner child me all my experiences with my family of
origin are forgiven on their own
and has become a great parent to this inner child
I start to view myself through the eyes of source to be one with the light that
I am have always been and shall always be and it’s okay if I don’t like how
this feels I mean when doing a right
and if I like how this feels same-same no extra credits right I mean I was
talking to someone just a friend of mine and you know they’re going through a
very deep trauma you know and when I’m you know I just want people to be honest
and I don’t you know I’d let people decide what’s honest for them although I
could feel yeah we can always feel what’s honest and not you know we can we
can feel what is that spirit like all the spiritual ego overlay where it’s
like someone’s hiding the truth of their gruesome experience and putting over it
like some sort of shiny spiritual concept right like it’s talking to
friend they go yeah I’m really traumatized but but but I accept it
I accept it and it didn’t it wasn’t the feeling of acceptance it was like this
is what I should say based on what I’ve read hey God aren’t I doing a great job
right and I lean to them to them I said you know you don’t get extra credit for
that we go what do you mean I said you accept this do you like how it feels
no no no I said just say that I said what do you mean I said tell me how
shitty this is that’s what I want to hear how shitty is this like they’re
gonna said you’re allowed to do that yeah yeah you are you are because you
can’t fool the truth in you and a lot of us as empathic spiritual beings are so
afraid of being honest about our experience because we’ve been taught to
think it’s a judgment I don’t want to say the truth that’s a judgment the
truth is not a judgment judgment is only when you use the narrative of life to
condemn someone with no room for them to be redeemed true forgiveness is when you
see the actions of this person maybe completely irresponsible and
unconscionable and because this person is acting so out of character it is
their soul that I will pray for for it is their transformation that will spare
them of pain and spare them of hurting another person so judgment is when
you’re so lost in your own inner narrative that you are refusing
forgiveness for the people who need it the most
that’s what judgment is but we are spiritually empathic people we’re so
sensitive we’re so afraid of being judgmental that we’re not always honest
about our experiences and instead we try to be honest about the way we politely
package our experiences with spiritual concepts it’s like it’s like having a
pie it’s like you’re your pet went to the bathroom on your carpet and you just
sprinkled potpourri on it well all I smell is lavender that solves
that we don’t need to do that we can be totally honest and I think what’s even
more shocking is how the way people have misinterpreted things like manifestation
right the speaker the gas light worker the gas light worker
god forbid you have something adverse happen in your life and the gas light
worker says to you oh my god you have adversity what kind of thoughts have you
been thinking is that how life works you’d have a crappy thought and then the
piano falls from the sky on your head let me just say this life is crazy right
life is crazy but if life were truly a manifestation of thought we’d all be in
big trouble just think of half the crap you thought
when you were 10 what kind of world would you have created by the time
you’re an adult to be like what did I do thoughts don’t manifest reality what
thoughts do is because thoughts thoughts that you think are your thoughts is the
collective quantum field of thought which means here are all the
possibilities that have been swirling around in the quantum field before you
got to this planet and thought is what people identify with and then they go
that’s a good idea I’m gonna take that on and they identify with it then they
act out the behavior of that thought pattern but none of the thoughts are
your thoughts the only thoughts that are yours are the ones that inspire you to
be at your best and to move forward and consciousness so
the idea that you can have a negative thought the negative thoughts you have
isn’t something you thought it’s something you witnessed being thought
and so for you to go oh my god I just had a negative thought you know you
witnessed a negative thought orbit the field of
mind you didn’t do that and the idea that you thought it is just a different
thought so the idea that your thoughts create reality your thoughts create an
attachment to a certain narrative and if you believe certain streams of thought
over and over again you’re telling yourself keep looking for evidence that
justifies this thought so you don’t create reality with thoughts you create
perceptions of reality with thoughts which means if you identify with
thoughts long enough you’re going to change your perception to only look for
things that confirm the validity of that thinking that’s third dimensional
consciousness we are evolving beings we were born into the third dimension but
when you were a kid you were already awake from third dimension which is why
you looked about your family and go how did I get here what raffle did I win to
be around crazy people do you remember that when you’re young maybe you went to
a parent you asked a legitimate question and you got an answer and you thought I
will never ask you again remember the moment kind of like when
you woke up at a Santa Claus and you went hmm never asked them life
advice ever because you’re already out of that construct thoughts don’t create
reality so this whole idea like it again it’s the workings of the Gaslight worker
oh hey this happened to you what have you been thinking lately it’s how
someone sits on a high horse and demoralizes you because they themselves
don’t want to be in the state that you’re in because you need to be around
awake and being so we’ll sit with you in the mud and go yeah this is shitty isn’t
it and who will just hold your hand and say hey I’m just here to keep you
company now I’m gonna walk you through this I will never blame your experiences
on your thoughts because there’s no reality in that and the idea that you’re
gonna spend time trying to think all these positive thoughts as fast as
possible to help run all your negative thoughts like that’s like spiritual aerobics like
in the eighties when people wore leotards and the whole thing and leg
warmers that’s just spiritual ego 101 and all of
these things are just to show you superstition judgments and again being
honest about your experience isn’t a judgement having an opinion is not a
judgement having an opinion about someone’s conduct is not a judgment
because you’re just saying here’s my basis of morality here’s their different
basis of Ray of morality and this is what I’m not resonating with but
judgment is when you say their behavior is so egregious I refuse to allow
forgiveness and forgiveness doesn’t mean I let it go forgiveness means God this
one is acting atrocious transform them before any other human being so less
people can be hurt and harmed that’s what forgiveness forgiveness says
put this aching soul put this person who can’t stop harming people at the front
of the line forgiveness says I was next in line no
they’re next in line because I’m not hurting anyone I can wait ten more
lifetimes they must be redeemed before me that’s forgiveness forgiveness says
like a bodhisattva vow may those that harm others as a result of the harm done
to them be transformed before me so no one else may be harmed that’s the beauty
of forgiveness wakes them up out of their narrative because their narrative
is harming people I didn’t wait you know my bodhisattva vow is to the
universe everyone before me i’m last because my breath is already of infinite
blessings every breath I breathe is of in is the vapor of infinite diamonds
taken in purifying and being sent out as abundance for every soul everyone before
me because everyone else is hurting way deeper than me so in my reality the hurt
the hungry the betrayed the ashamed kid at all before me because I don’t need
anything but the light of my consciousness in
order to be that’s how we’re gonna change this world
and what gets you there is welcoming uncertainty and saying thank you
circumstances for not being the byproduct of thoughts not being because
of a vibrational standpoint but for being the greatest thing that is
unhooking me unmasking me from my hiding spot Thank You circumstances for showing
me I cannot outrun the hands of fate I cannot manipulate my way through this
game for this game there’s only the advancement of maturity and the only
strategy in a game that has advanced their maturity is the strategy of
honesty which is why the only the truth shall set you free and in the name of
letting the truth set you free try this out loud repeat after me
I accept that any lower opposite is only helping me clear out energy to build up momentum to welcome the
energy of the other opposite therefore no matter my circumstances I’m
not missing out on anything but simply the opportunity to be fully
present with whatever I’m spending time healing by living it out every time I’m
sad no matter how I perceive it whether
seeing it through the lens of fancy spiritual teachings or judging myself
for being sad and then judging myself for judging myself for being sad I accept that when I’m sad
I’m clearing out stagnant energy and building up the momentum
to welcome the experience of happiness every time I feel fear
I’m clearing old energy and making room to welcome greater moments of courage
every time I’m angry I’m clearing out old energy
and making room to welcome greater moments of passion every time on
envious I’m clearing out old energy and making room to welcome moments of
gratitude every time I’m ashamed and clearing old energy
and making room to welcome moments of greater confidence every time
I’m guilty I’m clearing old energy and making room
to welcome greater moments of liberation every time I act from ego
I’m clearing out old energy and creating greater space
for my soul to emerge and whether I’m experiencing hatred and myself or hatred in another
I’m clearing old energy so to create more space
took for a love to be fully present in me and I accept that any moment of
darkness is creating more space for light in any
moment of unconsciousness whether as predator or victim
as creating greater space for consciousness for the hero within me to
Don all I have to do is make peace with
uncertainty and instead of trying to do this a
special way to notice that the way I’m already doing it as how I was created
and intended to be and what you’re feeling in the room
whether in person are on this video what you’re feeling right now the vibrational
shift is you’re feeling the relief that spontaneously dawns from uncertainty and
what actually creates that shift is the moment you stop seeking relief from the
experiences you think you’re mistakenly having this isn’t a mistake the ego
cannot micromanage this with spiritual ideas well if I just wake up and do this
then this life will be this way and not that way if you believe that then you’ll
have other people in your life and you’ll go oh you know why this is
happening to you because you’re not doing X Y & Z like I’m doing you should
be like me you should be like me positive things inspirational things
transfer transformative things are the things that help you to take great care
of yourself emotionally nutritionally physically and energetically as a way of
circulating energy on a regular basis as you go through the process of your life
that is no mistake that is predetermined and conspired only to guarantee your
highest evolution but to imagine that you’re going to do all this stuff to
control what does and doesn’t happen to you is what you wake up from your life
is not a law of attraction epidemic it is not a low vibrational disaster but
you do have an imagination that will pull from the files of your learned
consciousness and will sell you some really egregious fantasies I bet you my
life would be different if I could hear my guides you’re only saying that
because you’re not hearing your guides you know why you’re not hearing your
guides because your guides are giving you the space to empty out and your
guides are saying we’re not talking to them yet because if we told them what to
do they would just negotiate with us guides tell me what to do anything
anything just sit there for a little bit you got anything else No
no II don’t that’s why we’re up here you’re down there your guides know you
because they are higher aspects of you your guides know you before you even
know your motivations right yeah here’s here’s their conversation with your guys
is what I don’t say anything can I show you a question and and there’s gonna be
one guide that goes just give them one question there’s always that guy that’s
me the newest on the team right you always want to trust the guides that
almost look bitter because they know the guys there in heaven but look like you
know they survived the Civil War you want those guides there’s always one
that goes just fine just one question fine hey well it’s really a three-part
question and that three-part question leads into
a bigger question you see no you’re not not hearing your guides because they’re
talking and you’re missing anything you’re not hearing them cuz they’re not
speaking to you and they’re not speaking to you because they’re preparing you to
speak with them once you’ve woken up out of negotiation because what your guides
are not going to negotiate with you which way is what most people want to
talk to their guides about is hey guides how can we make this different the real
thing you should ask your guides and if you really want to feel the presence of
your guides and angels in your life like that you know what you say to your
guides hey guides can you make your presence
known so I can be more soothed as I go through the things that I’m no longer
trying to hide from ask your guides to support you through your experiences not
to rescue you from your experiences and that’s when the guides go yep they’re
becoming one of us finally because guides help guides angels assist angels
and you have to start thinking like a guide in an angel you don’t ask the
universe to change your experience you ask the universe to show you why this
experience is the greatest thing that’s happening to you and how it’s gonna make
you a more evolved human being and if there’s anything that can be done to
make it easier for you to process the transmutation underway that wouldn’t
that be amazing I mean you talk like that to the universe the universe goes
and now we have a master waking up and they will they will serve you more
triumphantly than you can even imagine but what we have to do is we have to
stop being in within this fertile soil of uncertainty looking for a way out
that’s what makes it hurt what’s gonna make this stop
I’ll have to cut out of my life to make this pain go away
the ego will sell out anyone anyone anyone the ego has no value for anything
other than what it wants and so we have to learn that it’s the ability to evolve
from the fertile soil of our most uncertain experiences and the inability
to try to escape our experiences by looking for relief because relief is
here but relief is what you receive when you stop seeking it and the moment you
do that you will have one split second experience of hopelessness hopelessness
tells you you’ve entered the doorway of salvation just stay there and your ego
in hopelessness your ego gives up its control and goes well that’s it I’m
gonna feel like this forever and if you sit with that for like a minute if you
can sit in pure hopelessness and not turn it into a narrative and just feel
hopeless all hope is gone left behind all alone I am doomed
forever and then after forever inspires more doomsday for me as if you’re
floating in the universe holding a skull doing some Shakespearean monologue of
how helpless you are oh the terror oh the pain forever and ever and then you
stop and then there’s silence hell of a sudden you know it doesn’t feel so bad I
think I feel good how do I feel good how did that happen
and then there’s just space and from space is where you has reborn
consciousness blossom into a newly transformed you like a baby burn birth
from a womb that enters the world out of pure space you are birthed as a new
expression of embodied consciousness and that birth is birthed through the canal
of hopelessness if you can allow uncertainty to be faced without meaning
something to be certain about because in the mind of the spiritual ego there’s
always the belief that says if I knew more or did more I’d feel more of what I
want you’re not true not true at all and what’s fascinating is that a lot of
times and I’m someone who’s in a position where I’m blessed to say that
you come to me with your questions and events and I’m happy to always use it as
an opportunity to guide you into your next level of evolution when people ask
me questions I intuitively know the next stage they’re ready for how to guide
them there I don’t always hear questions as I need
to give you an answer because the answer is just the access to the next level but
a lot of times we have questions when we’re in the uncertainty and we don’t
realize that some of our questions if we believe that your salvation is dependent
upon the answer to the question you have is actually just the hiding spot that
keeps you from really becoming uncertain because if you were to really be
uncertain you would have nothing to know and without something to fixate on as a
reference point of this is and this isn’t without a fixation on knowing you
are now open to all possibilities which brings you into the entry point of a
quantum reality where there’s everything to know but only at the moment you know
it and you only know what you need to know for as long as you need to know it
and when it’s time for it not to be known something else will take its place
so we learned to allow knowing to come with no grip no grip and every level of
awakening throughout the infinite realms of enlightenment and nearly every level
the rules change and the rules change so you don’t hold anything so you can say
this is true right now and maybe in five minutes 30 seconds or 10 years it’s
going to be different just so you can allow the butterfly of clarity to land
in the palm of your hand and it will stay there as long as it’s
meant to be but you don’t try to close your hand to control its destiny we
don’t capture the butterfly and we just hold space for it to land for as little
or as long as it’s meant to and when it goes away another one will come and we
just have the hand open to always receive here’s a funny question if you
couldn’t know everything that you think you need to know right now what would
you do about it like you go I need to know this boom
there it is now what are you gonna do you’re gonna go around your life and
tell all your friends about the things you know you don’t need to know anything
more than you know in order to take care of yourself you just need to understand
how much pain and tension and turmoil you might be in because if you’re honest
about your pain you’ll know how to care for yourself just like if you knew the
pain other people were in you’d know how to play the role of a caring person for
them I know again you can’t get away from you but you don’t have to spend day
and night with people you don’t resonate with but what I’m suggesting is if
you’re around people your family your friends your partner and whether they’re
in a story hiding in and or not it is your ability to say to someone else
thank you for giving me a chance to spend some more time in the experiences
I really don’t resonate because you’re helping make me make peace with the
things that I’ve judged in myself if you do have to spend time with people we see
through the eyes of compassion and when we see people that are acting harmful we
see innocent beings that are hurting and I’m not telling you how much time to
spend with any person I’m not telling you to go from one extreme to the other
I’m not saying ‘die in relationships with people that are abused
Susan call that self-acceptance I’m just asking you to allow whatever in your
life is causing uncertainty to be your deepest point of surrender and to always
remember that before you have the ability to love another person you will
have to successfully unconditionally love yourself so when I teach
unconditional love it is always from the standpoint of you first
and you only and when you have been transformed by your own loving nature
that’s when you’re ready to share with other people so if you can’t be
unconditionally loving with other people it’s because none enough has been given
to you start with you please my first book title was whatever arises love that
you are that that is not out there that is in here and of course you will
realize that the that in here and the VAT out there is the same freaking that but until you realize that it ain’t your
truth it’s just whatever Rises love that love this and look uncertainty square in
the eyes and say now I’m ready for your greatest wisdom stripped me of all of my
judgments all of my superstitions and thank you for helping me to see that
what I thought was the scariest demon here to attack me was actually my most
loyal and steadfast Liberator welcome uncertainty and say I’m well I’m ready
for my journey now then stop asking uncertainty to treat you differently
because that’s your job uncertainty has a job to do its job is
to render you uncertain of your narratives your job is to love yourself
through that holy shit experience and anytime you’re trying to use
spiritual concepts to try to make something different or better you’re
trying to go into a place of certainty that’s not what uncertainty is
uncertainty is I don’t know because knowing is where people hide when people
judge you they’re sharing with you the knowing they hide behind as they hurl
rocks at people because they think I’d rather attack others than to be attacked
by others it’s a defense mechanism and the reason why uncertainty is trying to
strip you of your knowing is for you to go through the fundamental awakening of
consciousness that says I am knowing itself not the one hiding behind the
things I think I know I’m that which knows and I only know what I know the
moment I need to know it and when it’s time to know something else that knowing
is done feel how different the energy feels do you know what this creates for
us as not just an experience you’re having right now but a repeat experience
every time you watch this video it frees you from thinking if I knew why this was
happening I’d be better off you don’t need to know why things are happening
you already know what’s happening because it’s inspiring your deepest
evolution here you go doesn’t want that answer
it’s not juicy enough ego says can you keep elaborating until
I have someone to blame that’s that’s what the ego wants and wants more juice
but you don’t need to know why things are happening it’s happening only for
your highest evolution the question isn’t why is this happening the question
is how much relief will be present if I stop looking for relief and there’s that
silence again do you know what that silence is the true narrative of life’s
epic saga or out of the spaciousness of infinite possibility came the sound of a
word and within that word infinite worlds parallel dimensions quantum
realities were birthed where all births and all deaths happened simultaneously
and the witness of the word out of the silence yearned to know itself as
although simultaneous incarnations and created a vacuum of space and time to
experience the living reality of its own infinite majestic narrative otherwise
known as life this is where life gets beautiful and whether you are reduced
into a pile of tears or you are buried by the pain you don’t know how to
micromanage and avoid the deeper you go into the grit of your experience the
more surprisingly beautiful it becomes there is free will but your free will is
you choosing how to care for yourself in response to life circumstances and how
to view things in a way that is most supportive for you so that you can be
the most open expressive and heart centered even when your circumstances
seem to be otherwise there is free will it’s just not control it is the will of
the freedom within you but that freedom freely wants to only be you as you are
and when you want to be you under different circumstances that’s when you
split from the will of your freedom and the more you care and love yourself
the more you will realize what’s happening to me is not a mistake it’s
not a curse it’s not a spell it is the greatest thing that happened to me for
the evolution of my consciousness and I don’t have to like it one bit not one
better just feel feel the difference whatever one have
their narrative when the freedom of will has woken up in you a narrative is
optional and then there will be that moment where you take a step in your
life and you will literally step out of your narrative like a version of
yourself you diagram and you’ll even forget it was even there in the moment
you don’t have a narrative as the moment that it’s okay that everyone else does one metaphorically speaking the people
that are the most bothered by babies crying are the adults that forget their
childhood so spirituality is about the sacred
journey of remembrance because it’s so easy to forget isn’t it and the more we
remembers the more compassionate and loving we become to ourselves and to
others because this world needs us it needs the light of consciousness and
that’s what we are gonna anchor while other aspects of the world do what
they’re designed to create and play out we are here to be the anchors of light
to be away showers of love kindness and compassion and what you wake about of
when you unplug from the collective narratives as you unplug from the energy
of unconscious retaliation that says they act unconscious I reflect it right
back no no no we learned earlier today what true forgiveness is they act
unconsciously what do we do into the front of the lie now please
please please you’re acting that way in front of the
wine in heaven please who drinks from the Fountain of Youth first those who
are the most thirsty and the ones that are the most dehydrated spiritually
speaking are the ones acting the most egregiously and when you have this and
every time you spend time in this transmission with me you are soaking and
basking in the glory of your own awakened consciousness you are
remembering it’s not one person on this planet who carries the Messiah code of
spiritual royalty all of us come from spiritual royalty and when you start
holding yourself in this kind of regard and you start respecting the royalty
regard no matter how buried it is another human being you remember the
kingdom that you ran before you came here on this little field trip and it’s
called the kingdom of heaven we are all descendants of spiritual royalty we are
all rulers of heavens Kingdom and we came down here to bring royalty to life
so we hold ourselves in the highest regard and we treat others with the
utmost respect and those that are having the most difficult time within
themselves or disrespecting others we move to the front of the line to the
power forgiveness and we start embodying our light this is the shift that happens when we
face uncertainty and as always no matter how things seem or appear on
behalf of the universe I’ll be out for the kingdom that you are from for you
resided as always I’m here to be with you every step of the way and I love you
so much mama Stan you you

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